We’ve been in this house a little over 3 months now, it’s quite a home given the little income and the limited resources available to me but it’s still a great place to be. My little garden has become my little haven in any weather, with personal touches of candles (made from tins and jars), buntings and a self made sun shade I love to sit out there and just enjoy the quiet, read or write my journal.
What I under estimated though is how much harder it is to rebuild a life. My life isn’t just about my ward its about the every day things, my neighbours, the kids schools, making sure health checks are done regularly, following up the trials of registering the house (that’s a pain in the neck with a new build) not to mention any kind of socialising.
Yet here I am feeling rather isolated. The neighbours are good here. Well two of them don’t speak to one another and go out their way to antagonise each other. I steer clear of both of them because I refuse to be drawn into it all. The other neighbours are quiet, friendly and pretty much keep to themselves. The location of the development means transport is needed to go anywhere, no bus service is set up until the site is completed (estimated to be 2013). My love of driving into town when I have errands to run is as high as jumping off a bridge…so I avoid it where I can.
It will all come together, relocating in a brand new area comes with much learning, trial and error and moving out of the comfort zones, I’m getting there!
What I do struggle with is my place here. See, I don’t drink alcohol so I don’t go to pubs/clubs, I don’t like to be around people who swear a lot, drama queens/kings or gossips. So why then do I find it awkward to fit in anywhere? I am on Charley’s school committee, I help out with reading and the forest school, I am looking at doing a full time course in September with the Open University, though based at home it’s not going to be high on the social scale! My ward is 12 miles away, a 24 mile round trip that I said 3 months ago that I cannot afford the extra fuel to make it there, having asked repeatedly for anyone that may be able to give us a lift its not forth coming…our ward is so spread out its not an easy task. I’m sure many would be willing if they could.
Single Adult activities are far and wide yet I am open to organising something local….but in real terms that would require a lot of people to do a fair bit of travelling…and I just don’t think they would do it when it came to it. So what am I to do?
I am bored with the quality of my social life. Facebook is great but I feel that is all I have now and that is not how I want my life to be.
So I’m working on putting this right….just as soon as I come up with a reasonable idea!
Debs
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